(((((wisewoman))))) I understand so much, all of it. I had to have my "pets" slaughtered, after I had taken care of them and became friends. It still bothers me. We currently have a dog who may need to be put down soon. I just don't know how to tell when it is right.
When my deceased kitty was very sick, I needed to get him through the day, couldn't go in til my hubby got home. I asked the vet about giving him some of my Xanax to make him suffer less. They ok'd it and by the time I brought him in he was almost gone, so it was very peaceful.
Take care!

PS. just love the puppy pics