I suffer with severe anxiety, panic attacks, depression, ocd and agoraphobia. For the past year. The agoraphobia only started since Jan this year and had to leave my job in Feb.

This.is the first time I've posted so not sure how it works but if anyone replys then I suppose to hear related view etc might help me. I speak to the samaritans a lot but I like to hear from people that are maybe going through what I am.

I get anxious every single day nearly over everything and it makes me feel abnormal. Does anyone else have anxiety of everything and gets anxious of being anxious if that makes sense? Which then in turn turns into a panic attack. I keep developing more and more ocds every day and if I dont do something I think of I believe something bad might happen.

I've become very depressed lately and I don't know how to control my emotions. I have many suicidal thoughts but I panic over the fact I might die. So I'm afraid of dying. Also my uncle committed suicide and I'm scared I'm going down the same route and that the anxiety will leave and all that takes over are the suicidal thoughts. I don't take meds because everything they've prescribed I've refused to take due to anxiety over possible side effects. I've got my first appointment in two weeks with a psychiatrist but I need some support now. I don't know what to do any more and I find how.I feel and act quite embarrassing and believe the psychiatrist can't do anything for me or help me and my feelings.

I've become very angry and irritaited over the slightest thing recently as well and I worry about the health issues I have at the moment and tests I'm due to have

Kez