I ended up telling my mom. She's mad, but she said they'll help me out. I know I totally fcked up, but I was completely out of my mind all semester with basically no help from my pdoc at all so...yeah...

And now that I'm home, I've switched pdocs since I'm not going back to school, and this pdoc saw that I was manic immediately and took action immediately and has been closely monitoring me so, it'll be fine. I think I'm gonna cut up my credit card though, so I can't use it. I don't know it's number either so I can't use it for online shopping or anything.

And mania is super rare for me, so it probably won't happen again for another year. I tend to spend more of my time depressed. But I'll be watched by my T and pdoc closely over this next year (my mom is worried this will happen again, but I don't think it will because when I have actual expenses which I will then I am more careful)...so....yeah.