You must feel awful.
To be in a depression that long without meds or anyone else to talk to sounds terrible.
You do have a lot on your plate...how supportive is your hubby and are the kids old enough to take on chores and help around the house...same with your hubby?
My suggestion would be to find a good pdoc(psychiatrist) in your area....and a new therapist.
It sounds as if you would benefit from some medications like a mood stabilizer.
Do a search on this forum for hallucinations/psychosis/delusions....to read what might have been posted not that long ago. There is a wealth of information stored on these forums it is just learning how to tap into the past information.
Welcome to the forums.
bizi