Oh, I see what you're saying now. The way you worded it made me feel as though you were asking about a certain thing I didn't want to answer.
Both I guess. If anything happens to someone I know, it doesn't have an effect on me. If someone is talking about something, it doesn't have an effect.

I've read into those, but I honestly don't know? It's hard to explain.
I'm not even sure it's an exact disorder, I think it may just be the way I am.

And no I do not see a therapist. I'm kind of against that idea. I understand how it would help, but, no.

I just kind of drop into these episodes where I get really 'chaotic evil' is what my friend calls it. It is just like it sounds. I tend to lie a lot during these episodes, become extremely rude, paranoid and just flat out break. It's annoying. I also have the sudden urge to harm myself?
These episodes used to be rare, but lately I've been experiencing them more and more often. I've only been able to contain my paranoia and everything for short periods of time. Right now I'm fine, which is why I'm here.