I don't really like the idea of attending therapy myself. I'm giving it a go though because I think it will be helpful to me if I can overcome the barrier. Have you ever wrote down a list of all the things about yourself that you don't think fit in with the "norm"? If you get a whole list written out, then you could always go over it and see if you could make connections between them.

Like, from your last post... I can guess at a few things which you might put on that list: 1. lack of empathy 2. lack of conscience 3. paranoid episodes 3. lie 4. urge for self-harm.

If you write them all down, then you could see if you fit into a bit of a personality disorder or something, if you're wanting to see where you might "fit". Or not. you could always take the list in to see a councellor, explain that you aren't wanting to undergo therapy, but just wish to understand what they think might be up? I don't really know. I'm just trying to think of suggestions for you, since this seems to be something which bothers you to some degree.

I'm sorry if anything that I said or asked made you feel like I was prying or something - I'm really not! I'm just trying to help you sort out your own thoughts. It's sorta hard for me to think of suggestions or that, because I feel a huge amount of empathy most of the time and I always feel bad about things I do - hell, I even feel bad about the bad things that other people do to me! So... I'm sorta on the opposite end of the spectrum here.