I have been struggling with anxiety issues for about 10 years, since my divorce. I've been on xanax (or generic) since then, but only as needed. I take the peach pill (lower dose) and only half of that if I feel an attack coming on. I'm fine during the work week, but weekends are horrible and I am socially inept without them. I don't want to leave the house without one (not every time, but 75% of the time) for fear of serious physical consequences if I don't. I have no fear of addiction because I have not really increased my intake. I usually take about 8 to 10 tabs a month total. My doctor tells me how addictive they are and I believe him, but I've tried anti-depressants that have not solved the problem. I've taken Zoloft, Prozac and Lexipro and with each one I was despondent, felt dread and suicidal. I've always viewed taking the xanax as needed was the better alternative since it was an 'as needed' med instead of a daily intake. My concern is that I feel my anxiety will never go away and that I'll be stuck taking this stuff forever. I've done the no caffeine, yoga, therapy, exercise thing, but nothing seems to take them away. I guess I'm stuck with it, but is there anyone out there who has serious social anxiety that eventually found a better med? A long term med that finally made the attacks go away for good? I'm desperate to finally put this anxiety nonsense out to pasture. I'm so frustrated. Any input would be greatly appreciated.