I just turned 35, and am now officially middle-aged, so I think this is why I am having thoughts about my potential future. And it is looking a little grim.
For all my 35 years, I have been in one short and dysfunctional relationship. The problem is I really want another one right now and I am despairing of ever getting there.
There are a few stumbling blocks.
1. Low sex drive due to non-psych medications I was on last year. I am thinking of seeing the doctor about this, but I haven't had an opportunity just yet.
2. No job. In fact I have never really had a job, it's always been temporary work, or I've been self-employed. I didn't make any money in the self-employed stuff.
3. Social anxiety disorder. I would describe it as severe/chronic. I am going to start some major therapy soon, and it will be very intensive, so I think I may be able to sort some of this out in there.
4. Depression. I often don't feel like I want to do anything. I don't get out. I don't have hobbies. I have very few clothes.
So basically I am after a woman who doesn't mind that I might never become gainfully employed, and that I am socially inhibited and don't really want to have sex that much.
It's depressing because I feel otherwise normal. I'm an average looking person of average intelligence. I just have a few massive problems that have completely isolated me .
Basically just want to be like 'everyone else'. So to speak.
Thoughts?
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