I am very sorry to hear that you're going through all this. You sound just like me. at times i feel like I cannot get out of a situation like this. For most of my life, I feel like I've been controlled. I cannot seem to be able to escape from some of the situations. I have rebelled. I don't like to be the one to let htis happen any longer. I want to be released from anyone's control and I don't want other people's emotions to be transferred to me. I don't like it and I don't appreciate it either.