Hi !, last year I got married and after the 3rd month of my marriage things started going bad, I passed 8 years before i married my husband, and our relationship was not quite worth it, always arguing, he also use to cheat on me and when i tried to get up the topic he will always refuse to talk about it or neglect, anyway when he proposed it was my birthday...and we were already 6 years together, when he proposed he ended up saying that it was all true re-cheating, so you may imagine how i felt!!! i tried my best to stop the relationship but to no avail ...we got married and there were things got worse, no communication at all!, when we suppose to be alone at home he use to eat,drink and sleep....and when i tried to tell him something he use to shout,and be agressive also, leading up to a big fight were physical abuse was also done, to tell all the truth he was already like that before marriage and yes i know i did a mistake not leaving before..!! anyway after 9 months i told him to stop our marriage and go for seperation, i did so because every time we use to argue i did all my best to go a speak with someone professional but again he refuses, i also suggested anger caourse but again he refused, therefore my marriage only lasted for 9months......

The most part that it is leading me to be guilty is that after i left from his home i cheatted on him and after a couple of weeks i started a relationship, (you may say im a totally *****) but i felt that my love for him had vanished , what can i do?? im most of the time moody, been almost 9 years with mood swings and i dont know if it is because of my situation re-relationship or a hormonal problem or a mental problem i really wish that this time pass cos it's leading me to end my life..