I am a little off right now getting meds adjusted due to the depression and was hoping to run something by y'all. I would really appreciate your feedback as I think my mind is playing tricks on me.

I just graduated with an associates degree that requires certification to work. It is important that I get back to work. I have signed up to take the certification exam this summer and I have until end of September to take it. Meanwhile, I am finishing my bachelor's and have one class this summer. A calculus class that though I have to work at math, I usually do well. I am in way over my head with this calculus class, spending really long days and dragging myself to tutors, but getting 50's mostly. It is the first two weeks of the 7 weeks session and I only need a C to pass to transfer back to my school, but no matter the grade, pass or fail, it won't affect my GPA. However, I have not been able to study for my certification exam.

I considered dropping it but remembered something an advisor once said: it is better if not doing well, especially if it won't affect your GPA, to stick it out and be exposed to the material; then retake it, because it will be less you have to learn the next time. Considering I have never had calculus before this might be a valid point since I will probably have to retake it in the fall at this rate anyway. However, if I drop it, I will have all the time in the world to study for the cert exam but no chance of being exposed to any calculus.

I was thinking to continue with it to get the exposure, perhaps the class is salvageable (something might click at some point), but put aside so many hours a day for my certification material no matter what, and work the calculus in around it, come what may. I hate the thought of failing a class but if something can be learned it the process, it may not be a total failure despite what the grade says. Does this make sense? I wonder if I am just not wanting to give into the depression and lose the fees for the class. Perhaps I do need to drop it as I am overwhelmed and why the class is not making sense to me, get meds leveled out, study for cert exam, and just retake it in the fall. Any thoughts?

Thanks in advance for your thoughts; I really do appreciate it and am so sorry this is so long!!!