[title edit: dad thinks*]

I truly hope this post doesn't come across as offensive. I'll try my best to word it as properly as I can.

I finally had a proper conversation with my parents about how I've been feeling.

And my father just laughed and told me that I'm "not ill" and that I've "just made it all up" inside my head. I don't even know how to feel about this. The past few years of my life were ruined because of this and.. now he's suggesting that I've thought myself into thinking that I'm depressed.. I feel like there's a lump in my throat. I can't even cry. I self-harmed and couldn't feel a thing.

Now I'm wondering if he's right or if he's just being ignorant. It took me so long to convince myself that I deserved treatment... and now I don't even know what to say.
I don't know what I'm asking. I'm sorry.