Hi, everyone. Just a quick update. I've been doing really well mood-wise. I forgot and/or vomited up my meds (I've been suffering from some pretty intense nausea lately) a few times, which led to some temporary instability. But mostly, I'm on an even keel.

I really want to go to med school. I found a program where I would study two years in Australia, and then two in the US. It's really attractive, especially since it would give me another chance to live abroad after Italy ended so disasterously. I got my MCAT score back; I got a 31, exactly the average of med students accepted to US allopathic schools. I'm happy with it! I still don't know if I'm strong enough to handle med school, but I guess I'll find out.

I am taking two classes (organic chem lab and a psych course on autism) and working in a research lab. Work is a little awkward, because my boss, a 65 year old man, is attracted to me! He is always making these comments that both flatter me and make me feel uncomfortable. "You have really sexy shoulders." "I'm not going to let you go to Australia. I'm going to marry you so you're obligated to stay in the US." "I want to be your pretend boyfriend." etc.

I am sorry that I keep disappearing from this site. I feel like I owe you guys an explanation. I feel like when I'm doing well, some of the threads I read here are triggering. I have a tendency to make my illness the focus of my life, which leads to relapses because I'm so focused on it. Interacting with other bipolar people about our illness daily encourages me to obsess over it even more. I don't want to delete my account because you guys are some of my greatest friends and I would cry if I could never post here again! But I am trying to limit how much time I spend on this site for my own mental health.

Anyway, I'm back for a few days here at least. I hope you all are doing well, and that if you're not, that things will turn around for you soon.