Woke up dreaming of rats...I had a knife and I stabbing them but they were all encompassing and large. Ick

I am awake clothed don't want to go anywhere but I am going over to my parentals today. I don't even wanna go there...I wanna hide out in my room forever. Maybe go to the pharmacy then hide out in my room forever. Well until Monday that is...when I need more medication.

I feel determined and lonesome and SI.