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Originally Posted by Butterflying
In my other thread I mentioned my mom just died tw months ago. It was sudden and unexpected. I just saw my T two days ago and ive textd twice today for help. He said if I need to ask that frequently then maybe I should be somewhere safe (hospital). I'm not going to the hospital. I'm sure he's annoyed with me. Therapy isn't enough but what is? What is there? I have two close friends but that's not working well for support. Basically I'm on my own with severe depression. I just function the best I can but there is no joy in my life. I guess there's nothing my T can do. I've bugged him too much. I hate myself
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Having gone through the death of my sister fairly recently and the utter pain of grief, I'm wondering if you may be misinterpretting your T's comments.
I'm wondering if your T truly is expressing concern that your sadness and depression has gone beyond the scope of normal grief. Is he possibly truly concerned for your emotional and physical safety--thus the mention of the hospital? That wouldn't be annoyance (that would be your interpretation); rather, that would be true professional concern about the level of care you are needing right now.
I DID need more intervention after my sister's death than basic therapy. I did lapse into a truly clinically depressed episode (a complete different animal from normal grief) that required about a week in the hospital where I was safe while adjustments were made to my medications. Then I was able to discharge at least better medically managed for my depression so that I moved back into a more "normal" course of grief that truly could be more effectively served through therapy.
It may be that you need to discuss what your therapists' concerns are about your current state of functioning. It just seems much of what you posted is your interpretation of what he might have meant based on your own issues about feeling like a bother or burden to him rather on any real discussion of the matter with him.