Facey, even though your posts and responses are long, they are so good, I don't even realize it when i'm done reading.
I'm sorry hon that you can see there is something missing~ I feel for you, I know what you mean.
And also I agree wiht you about the confort of what you know rigth now to be your place.
I just hope someday you can finally feel all you need and deserve.
PM me anytime~