...for healing.

I realized on Thanksgiving Day, 2006 that so much healing, growth and learning has taken place here.

On that day, I heard from the primary abuser for the first time in 14-16 yrs (not sure of exact year).

Just the mention of the name before would've caused massive dissociation. In fact, I couldn't type or say the name for forever.

I'm glad, in this way, that he called. Did I get messed up a bit? YES!!! However, it has and could've been so much more!

I have a clear sense of how far we've come. Therapy was a huge factor, but so was/is PC and the sharing/support/learning that I've achieved just since being here. To know that I wasn't alone in my experiences allowed me to talk about them. Just knowing I wasn't alone kept me going at all sometimes.

I just wanted to share this because I know I used to wonder if anything was ever going to change...how and what was I trying to achieve in therapy, etc. This is it. Healing can happen. Healing did happen, but I can clearly see that there's more healing to be obtained. These are things I couldn't even identify before, let alone hope for.



Love & Respect,

KD