Ultra I believe my T would agree with what you said. I have his cell # for help with coping skills--he's against therapy texting. So since my mom passed away its been very easy to use texting when I feel my depression is out of control and I need help. The lines between coping skills and just wanting support/help to relieve my depression becomes a fine line. I've been thinking a lot about death even thoughts of wanting to die I thinks only because of my depression getting worse and the stress of going thru moms things and that she found out she was sick and died two weeks later. I want to hold onto my T emotionally and physically (he doesn't hug). He gets annoyed with me if I text too much no matter what--if I can't get out of bed or if I feel like the world is caving in--

I guess I don't have many places to turn. I'm an only child. Thank shod for my best friend even tho she's thousands of miles away.