Dear AS,

I am young and still have much too learn. I understand that if i dont' pull my head out soon i maybe locked in, intwined into something i never wanted to be. As i read you post i started to understand what you were trying to say in the first post you made but because i could not see you body language or anything like that i read it in a different way to what it was meant to be, but when i read your latest post the way it was written made me understand everything more clearly.

I have become more aggressive and i guess you and i are alike we had the same side affect from what we do/did. So far no-one has had the guts to tell me to stop or tell me that what im doing would, could and has given un-godly scars and infections. I've never had any support with what i've done until i came here. I met canders and shes been here for me and so has the rest of PC including you and i guess i just misinterpreted what you wrote.

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Picture the number of scars you now have. Now, place them ALL OVER your body. Imagine alot of those cuts with huge welts from the stitches and the infections that will always remain raised above your natural skin - always reminding you - not of the momentary euphoria you felt when you made them, but of the shame and humiliation of the AFTER EFFECTS - you know, the REAL consequences you experience.

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I don't need to picture scars all over myself because i 've got them there already. I agree that all those scars are a reminder of the shame and humiliation of then after effects.

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To sit here and know that YOU could possibly end up looking like I do now is somewhat hard to bear. Somewhat?! I should say EXTREMELY hard to bear...

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The fact that you care so much is so touching, and to tell you the truth those words really touched me. I put aside my hurt when i read that and i understood that there are people who care about me and i would not want you to ingnore my post because right now i value your friendship and even though ive only just met you i consider you as a friend because i dont have many.

But yes you can ignore me if you want, i don't mind but if you want to let me know, my email address is on my profile page. And your right its me not anyone else holding that knife or that razor just me.

And the whole thing wth the critical analysis and it hurting alt less that a cut.

I AGREE and I trust you one that

Milly

p.s THANKYOU!!!!!