Hi Kez
Welcome to Psych Central. I know what it is like to be anxious all the time. I also suffer from agoraphobia. I used to be depressed but medication made that better. I take meds for my anxiety. I know the idea of side effects is scary, but once you find the right meds, it makes your world so much better. I fought the idea of taking meds for years, but I knew I was going to die if I didn't because my depression was so bad so I agreed to try them. Any time I got a side effect I didn't like, I would tell my doctor we had to stop that med and try another and he agreed. you have the power to do that. and there are so many meds out there you are bound to find something that works without side effects. I did. now I just have anxiety and agoraphobia. I don't get panic attacks any more. I realize I am not going to die, my anxiety isn't going to kill me no matter what my mind tells me. with planning I can get out of my home and do things and be ok. you will find a lot of support here on PC. again, welcome.