(((((((((((((((candybear))))))))))))))))) You have nothing to apologize for. I am sorry that you got so overwhelmed that you felt you had no other choice but that does not mean you should beat yourself up over it. We all have times when we revert to old coping ways but the important thing is we don't give up. Please don't give up on yourself. You are a wonderful person who is having a rough time right now. I hope soon you will be able to see that. Until then take my word on it; you are.

You don't need to apologize to anyone else either. You let them know how you appreciate all their efforts but this time you were unable to resist. I am sure that eveyone will accept this and believe many have been in the same situation and are empathetic to what happened. I am sure no one is upset with you.

Please take care of you and be safe.