I would not press a button, no. Would I try to cure it myself.. yes. Bipolar may have helped shaped me but I don't think curing myself at this stage in the game would take my past with it. So many things in life have shaped who I am and a lot of them are not pleasent, I can move forward and grow and don't have to keep experiencing them all repeatidly to do that. I have plenty of depth and creativity without bipolar or with it, bipolar doesn't sum up the whole of my depth, mind or heart.

But maybe cure is the wrong word for me, overcome it.. sure, don't want to have to just cope, just want to learn how to live contently at all times. Neither depression or mania brings me peace. I'm good with a calm flow. I have been stable for quite some time ( without meds cause meds certainly did not bring out the real me nor anything that should be considered normal in my case) and I have found that nothing has really changed about who I am except for the quality of living I have gained. I have not become some boring shell or shallow. I can now say I actually am in love with being. I get to enjoy it now more than ever.

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One thing I guess I notice is that there is so much beauty, creativity, passion, and compassion, spirituality etc in this world, I dont see Bipolar as a one up for that. There are far to many sources we can develop and cultivate those traits or gifts from, bipolar or not. I have a hard time accepting that I have to keep bipolar around to experience a deep, vivid and rich life. Bipolar is only one door out of many.