I recently came to the conclusion that I do not know myself. I feel that my mother has pressured me, brainwashed me, for better or worse to be her "mini me" and succeed in areas of life she did not. Thankfully I broke free of her reality but unfortunately I find myself swinging between her and what little of myself i have. I am not sure how to "find it" or how i am suppose to act, Be "me".

when i was on medication i felt more or less like a zombie,,

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