While I cannot comment on what you SHOULD do...I CAN say i understand your feelings. I have some abandonment issues, too and am just working on taking "calculated risks" with people. I sort of look into weather people are worth the effort or not first and then slowly show more of myself. I just don't like to live in such a hesitant way, but once you've been burned, and your heart cannot take much more injury, it seems only natural to become selective on who has access to your love. Relationships run their course, that is a fact. How that goes down is only partially up to us. I guess just being in a good relationship with yourself is the best protection we can offer ourselves??? I don't know...i am trying to figure this out too. I just wanted you to know you aren't the only one out there struggling with this.