I too have lost my parents and my brothers and sisters. My mother turned on me and dropped me at the ER. She told the front desk that she was 'done with me' and she left. As long as I pretended to be normal she loved me but when my husband and I moved in with her to take care of her after my step-father died I began to have panic attacks and mania with psychosis, rapid cycling and mixed states. I had always been able to act well but my bp has worsened over the years. She blamed my illness on my husband and told me that he had given me bipolar! She kicked him out of the house without telling me and I thought he had left me. Anyway the entire experience was awful and we don't talk now. My brothers and sisters sided with her because she is a phenomenal manipulated and liar.

I have a wonderfully supportive husband who also has bipolar. Sometimes we cycle differently and it is hard but the compassion, empathy and understanding always see us through. After 15 years we are still very much in love. I know he won't leave me. I'm the runner and have left him a couple of times...Always from parental pressure. But look who's standing after the war is over...it's always my husband. With him I shall stay. Too bad my parents couldn't accept us and love us unconditionally. But that's just the way it is.

I try to appreciate every day that I have with him and not worry about the future. I have let go of the past as well. It doesn't exist. All I have is today and today I am grateful to be with this man. Maybe that could help your worrying if your bf will leave you. Just treasure today with him and tomorrow do the same thing.