I had just went on a vacation with my teen daughter it was GREAT like a fantasy life!Then I come back to this box of isolation,major depression,PTSD BAD,broke, overwhelmed, stressed out, anxiety, panic, behavior horrible etc.
I wish I could run and go back to the fantasy life but I obviously cannot.I have had horrible time since July 8 when I got back.

The 2year anniversary of when my life changed for worst is coming up.I am having out of control behavior, major grey days, compulsive thoughts about this date coming up I fear! I am seeing my T 2 times a week until I get calm and this date passes and the rest of the negative things with it. I cannot even talk to anyone except my one friend from my local support group.I cannot talk to family or anybody because nobody even tries to get it besides my T. Do you know the saying flight or fight?Well I took the flight I got that vacation from this place I reside with all these horrible memories, and now I am back on fight mode!

I am a mess.