Can't deal with anything anymore. I am a complete waste of space. I cannot stand being in my own skin. I have f-----d up my life and the depression hasn't helped. I can't blame it all on that though, I am just irresponsible. Now I have no way out and I can't even get out of this depressed state. I am ruining my bf's life and everyone else has had it with me too. I am draining. I don't know why God allows me to continue living.