You know I think the need to be held and soothed in the middle of an awful, unattractive, messy screaming tantrum can persist beyond early childhood. Especially if you didnt get the comfort and holding and reassurance you needed as a small child. You crave that kind of comfort and unconditional love so much and you want someone calm and stable and authoritative to make it okay while you are at your most freaked out. You need to show them just how very, very distraught you are and you want them to witness your pain and have it be okay.

It'll just have to be enough to talk about it and cry and curl up into a ball and tell her how awful you feel. And you know, if you stick with it and work on it and commit to your wellness and keep thinking about who you eventually want to be--it probably will be enough.