I've been going through a lot of changes in my life over the past few months, but mainly the past month has taken a toll. There is no time out that I can really take. I have rapid cycling bipolar and have seen therapists and go regularly to my psychiatrist. I am on 3 diff. meds that I take on schedule every day! For at least 2 wks or more now my anxiety is going through the roof. I'm so irritable to my kids, I get panic attacks sometimes, am always anxiety ridden, especially if I am not in my own atmosphere. My anorexia has flared back up. I am SO SICK OF THIS!! So tired of the onsets of bipolar symptoms. Luckily I have a boyfriend who is very supportive and tries to help but I can be so rude. I try to take a step back and apologize for my behavior, I've been diagnosed for at least 7 yrs. so I know my symptoms. This is hell being stuck in this head and no one understands. I got a tattoo the other day just so I could feel alive. To feel something. Anything? Anyone?