-Christina I use to work at Disney World. That place alone can make someone go crazy.... either happy or with all the people.

Either way it's good advice.

I've been going out here and there, but it's not the same as far as enjoyment go. I want to look back years from now and say I've come a long way. Whether that be learning to cope or getting over my failure with social cognition. I feel like the only thing I know is what is right in front of me or stuff I read over and over again. Producing words is difficult. It's like my mind is silent. I'm getting better at coping, but I am still not over it. I want it back more than anything in the world.. Because if that comes back so does my confidence and everything that comes with that.

Here's a question how is someone suppose to be confident without saying hardly anything/ being able to have a conversation? That's a million dollar question. My social worker says that these problems are common for people coming back from psychosis... but I don't see these problems anywhere online (I do thorough research). I am having highs and lows where I'm happy to be me now and times where I hate it and have to talk about it. I am getting better in the sense that it's not always on my mind. I still feel disabled socially and if I can learn to be happy without being social, I'll be the happiest man there is. How do you do that?