Without T, are you able to keep yourself safe and have someone to confide too when you feel like you're leaking all over the place (figuratively)?
Giving up T is one thing, but giving up the fight is another thing. All of us deserve happiness.. be it really tiny ones or the opposite.
I guess you could take a break, and when you're ready, please do continue the battle.
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"The is no better exercise for the human heart than reaching and lifting others up." - John Holmes
herethennow: This ward is a prison!
Wardmate: No.. here's not a prison. *points to brain* Here is.
dx: recurrent MDD.