I don't follow the " you had a psychotic break and you need time to heal and be yourself again , or your depressed it takes time to recover and go back to being you , or your manic and it takes time to recover an go back to being you ... all of these are negatives in my mind. You are You , 5 years ago you were different and 5 years from now you will be different.

No one one whether Bipolar or not will ever go back to how they once were , it's impossible because today is Sunday and you are a different person than you were yesterday on Saturday

I choose to live my life in the here and now. I want to be content with myself. Maybe I will never be a social butterfly, maybe being that person that sits a bit off to the side and "people watch" is what I should be , what is healthy for me.

Life is always changing and evolving, No one stays the same, and to me that is a gift. People in general whether bipolar ,or other MI or seemingly perfectly healthy and outgoing ALL have issues. I do not need to compare my life to anyone elses. No one gets through this life without huge hurdles to over come or learn to live with.

A very good friend on here taught me about Mindfulness.... It has changed my life.

I am not saying I never have bad , terrible or horrible days ,weeks or months, I'm dealing with situational crap right now that I can't get around or avoid it , But I know that it will work it's self out. Right now I have to focus on self care and just leaning on my friends when I need a boost and love.