Teen, I have lost my brother, grandma and a friend. It has been very hard to deal with...I can relate to your feelings. It's incredibly hard to "get over it." By getting "over it" I mean what the world sees it as...I don't think I've ever gotten "over it" but I have come to a sense of understanding and peace about it. I don't believe in the afterlife but I do believe their death ended a lot of pain they were struggling with...time has helped me deal with my loss although it still gets to me when I hear certain songs on the radio or situations that remind me of them....it's hard...keep working thru it--you will make it to some type of peace. It's good you are reaching out here--it's a good step towards reconciliation....take care.....D.