Same for me...the downs are REALLY down and REALLYYYY long. It makes me question every aspect of life. The aftermath is daunting and longwinded too. Whereas, the ups are manageable and the worst trouble I cause anymore is annoying people with my chatter and charging up random crap (proud owner of new bowling shoes and a bunch or hair dye I will never use, and a slew of beads...all courtesy of my last hypomania. Ps. I DON'T BOWL : ).

I just went to a meditation session where the mantra was (breath in) "Let", (breath out) "go". I did it and tried, but didn't connect. Then later I was mulling stuff over as I always do and the light bulb turned on for me. I felt what it meant rather than trying to logically process it and I think it may help me during my next down-turn. Not sure if that can help you now, but it is all i've got. ((HUGS))