Hi, we cant diagnose here on PC...though it doesn't really sound like depression to me...I highly encourage you to tell your pdoc about all this. it is important that he know your history. I don't think he will think you are crazy. sounds like run of the mill delusion to me. but if you aren't honest with pdoc, he cant help you, so please, share what you have shared here. I don't think you have said anything to be afraid of.