Ocd including bazaar obssesion, anxiety, (ie. Monsters stealing your dad), withdrawing, low self worth are all signs of depression or asburgers which is often miss dx as adhd. It makes since you made up a bf and then felt you were bad (making him into santan) and then punishing your self by being so religious. To add more guilt because you were still depressed. It does sound like you could have been depressed enough for psychosis. I've been told it doesn't have to be a lot fpr psychosis and a lot of what people think is psychosis is actually anxiety. Talk to your therapist first before your pdoc.