Like a couple of posters already mentioned... you made some mistakes AND you've apologized for them. Also, it sounds like the more you reach out to her for her forgiveness and acceptance, the more she unleashes on you. I hope things change for you and that you forgive yourself. I haven't had that fortune. My husband's ex wife, has never let up on him (she has been relentless) and her demeaning, belittling, controlling attitude has not changed since they were divorced 14 yrs ago and it got worse when we married 12 yrs ago. Not only did her treatment of him get worse, but she started to treat me worse than him and she had never met me and to this day still refuses to have anything to do with me. In fact she is extremely malicious towards me. ... By the way, I was not the cause of their divorce. I met him a year later. She was cheating on him.

So my point is, I really hope that you don't have one of those types of people on your hands. My husband was shocked by how she treated me too. He/we had no idea what I was in for otherwise I would not have married him.