Thanks everyone... I am handling it one day at a time. Some days better than others.

A few days ago I was wishing I could hear from him again. (Bad idea, I know.) Then I remembered that I had recorded him during one of his verbal attacks. He knew I was recording him and didn't care.

I listened to that six-minute recording of him ranting at me, making baseless and even crazy accusations, and it did the trick. At the end I remembered fully why I no longer want to live with, see, or talk to him.

Sometimes love isn't enough.

I'm so glad I got away. I wish him well and hope if he ever has another relationship it will be better than the one we had... I wish that for the well-being of whatever woman he might be with. I would not want anyone to go through what I did.