Maybe its time to distance yourself from your family and do what you want to do to make you happy. you are the one that has to live with yourself, not them. You will never live up to their expectations, so there is no sense in keeping trying. your life is your own now. live it. I could sense your knowledge and happiness in talking about being a pharmacy tech. it is your future. you should be able to choose what you want to do. I say go for it.