Hi all,

I haven't been here in a while, and only come when I feel desperate and afraid. You have all always been so nice and understanding and I appreciate it so much. I'm afraid because I don't know if I should be here any more, and I don't know if I can take care of myself. If you have read my other posts, you'll see that my husband died in 2011 and my kids have moved out of the house within the past year, and I am now alone. I just turned 54 in June.

My house is getting to where it needs a lot of things done to it. I don't make much money, and have been trying to take care of what I can afford. But more and more things are going wrong and I'm afraid and don't know what to do. I would try to sell the house, but I think I'd have to make too many repairs I can't afford to be able to do that. I've been trying to keep up on the mowing and yard work myself, but it isn't easy, especially since it seems to be monsoon season around here!! Rain can do so much damage!

I'm really afraid, and I am losing interest in life more all the time. I feel life has passed me by and I don't belong here any more.

Thanks for listening. Any thoughts and/or advice is welcome.