I wrote her an email about my grammas today, they're both no longer with me, and I'm missing them terribly right now, in the midst of a traumatic couple of weeks. I told my therapist about just wanting a hug from my gramma and asked her what she'd say & do if I were in her office, then. (We do online therapy.) She said some reassuring things... but I was hoping she'd offer a hug.

She emailed me back and said we should talk about my gramma's hugs tomorrow because we have a chat scheduled, and I emailed her back, saying I didn't want to discuss anything so close to the heart anymore... I told her I'd wanted her to stand in, then sent a follow up to clarify, I just wanted some comfort, a hug, and I felt very stupid and ridiculous for asking.

She then went offline and I did not hear back. I feel horrid, rejected and ashamed.