((Hugs)) I'm so sorry you feel this way, is there something that you absolutely love to do that you can do now? Try to think of things you enjoy, it helps me to write down lists of things worth living for. When I get really down, I journal all of my thoughts and feelings which helps me a lot. Write down all of the negative things you are feeling and all of the lies your thoughts are telling you then under thoughts write the truth

example: lies: my thoughts are telling me that I will not make it through this again
Truth: I have made it though before and I will make it through again. I am stronger then I was last time and I am more equipped to handle this.

Just some ideas, I really hope this helps. Stay strong <3