hey....I hope things get better for you... I have to agree that you should be taking something to help you cope with all the stress you have right now.Maybe something like Wellbutrin or lexepro....

I can't imagine the pain and confusion you are having to deal with over your father... and anger... wow..and to have to take care of him while you love him and probably hate him at the same time...

I think thats an issue you should be talking about ..your dad molesting children... sorting out how you feel about it...about him..

And can he not go into a facility where he can get round the clock care and you aren't the one trying to do it all?At least you don't have small children to try and take care of too, although I know you must miss your son terribly...

Well , I hope you know you are not alone.. you have friends here who will help you all they can.. myself included...Hang in there! I hope things get regulated for hubby soon....Love, Faith