Hey there,

I think I understand. You lie there and your mind just decides to take you to places which only make you nervous and uncomfortable. I used to find myself having to get up because otherwise I would start panicking and/or crying.

I found myself doing many things to quell the flow of bad thoughts and intrusive images, worst case scenarios and so on. For example smoking hash, but that didn't work. Adapting myself to a new found way of sleeping (ie. breaking my sleep in two by taking a three hour nap in the afternoon - advantage of being self employed), but that is hardly healthy and could only be a temporary solution.

But in the end this is what helped me personally:



These talks of his (which then opened up doors to other authors and books which radically change my way of dealing with my mental illness, but also life in general.)

Best of luck!