Will see my therapist this week. Feel like I'm not getting anywhere. Feel like I can't help myself. The best I can do is accept myself and set boundaries. I can only cope with one "social" time every other day or so and then if I don't feel that I have control over when it's over, I panic. Most of the time my anxiety runs high and chokes me. I hate it. I feel best when I know for almost sure that I will be left alone. Then I can almost relax.

Thanks for listening.