im really struggling with intense feelings of emptiness lately. i seem to go through these different waves of feelings....at first there was extreme confusion and overwhelm regarding CSA that lasted for about a year and a half. then it tapered into lingering confusion and intense maternal longing and anger...the anger lasted about 3-4mos...the maternal longing is still intense and now ive moved into intense feelings of emptiness and inferiority and insignificance. a big black cloud of hopelessness. i hate all of this. all these crappy feelings that are so intense and then taper off while still lingering in the background while new ones swarm and engulf me. will it ever end? scary feelings of "what is the point of this life" keep creeping into my mind as i try to shove them out and find a reason to keep my head above water.