Hi Darla,

Actually you say you have schizoaffecitve and I wonder if it is bipolar type? I have bipolar and one of my worst symptoms of it is pressured speach, which is this intense urge to talk even when I don't want to. I can talk to total strangers for hours and not let them get a word in when it's really bad. Even in my brain I am shouting at myself to shut up and I can't. I even talk right over people, interrupting them. It's horrible.

I feel extreme awkwardness around people and the pressure to talk and talk is often more than I can handle. I work as a secretary in an office. Our waiting room is small and we don't have a lot of people come in at once. So, often just 1-2 people sitting here waiting. I can't stand sitting here because of the pressure to talk. I even can't stop myself and talk to people waiting. Some people are fine and liek to chat, other people I can tell they can't stand it and I can't stop....

Anyway, what you were saying about not wanting to talk made me think of it.