That is what the p-doc told me. It is an episodic illness and I might be in a long remission.

At the same time, two things have never happened to me:

- not needing sleep
- racing thoughts

And since these two things are hallmarks of bipolar, he thinks I might not have ever had it. the thing about me is that I sometimes cannot sleep, but afterwards I am completely, hopelessly miserable. Manic people subsist on little sleep not actually needing it - they sort of thrive on little sleep, whereas I am totally dependent on getting enough sleep. Not getting enough sleep is the horriblest thing for me, plus, it causes very unpleasant anxiety.