worst- my "friends" fighting next to me as none wanted to sit beside me in the roller coaster ride on a school trip, as that would imply to the rest that they liked me as a friend...

this is just one incident... i've developed such social anxiety due to rejection by peers in my school, which was 7 years ago, but still haunts me... and the worst is i still have no idea why... i am a decent person to look at(which i have learned to believe thanks to my only current friend), i cared and thought well of others always, never *****ed about anyone, the only thing i can think of is i wasn't allowed to go out and meet school friends outside of school hours if there were boys there, kinda orthodox parents, which made me very self conscious when i did talk to them... so my best guess has been i maybe wasn't "cool" enough...

best: i just wanted to say you have a lovely smile, it has brightened up my day!
(by an old lady on the street while i was walking, whom i just happened to give a friendly smile)...
and this meant a lot as when in school i had been told repeatedly by one of the same "friends" that i should smile less, it makes my face look ugly