A therapist would help you understand why you feel the way you do and what to do about it. Our society places a high value on working. If you're not working, then you're scum. This is a really harmful message that society sends us. We are not our jobs. The jobs are something we do. They're not our entire selves. Not having a job does not mean that you're lazy and unmotivated. That's something you're telling yourself and perhaps other people are telling you that, too. Doesn't mean it's true.

Since you're looking for something to do, could you volunteer somewhere? You can set your hours. You'll be doing something you want to do rather than something you have to do. Some fur therapy at the local animal shelter sounds like a good idea to me, lol. I should check that out for myself...

I hope you're feeling a little better today. Please feel free to vent at any time. That's what we're here for.